12 Secrets of highly creative Women: Secret 4 Surrender aka Sweet Release

Well, I had a few goals, this week, to show up to my artist table, to try something out of my comfort zone and to get to know you ladies of 12 Secrets. I was exhausted from the hospital stay with my Gram at the end of last week (more than I knew,) and I was in car accident Thurs (no injuries to speak of, a little sore, but too big of a crunch to be thrilled about) – however I'm happy to say I hope I know a few of you bit more than I did.

I started at 7 am and it is now 2pm. I’ve read profiles & posts, and seen and felt creativity that inspires and evokes. I truthfully realized how much I enjoyed the essences of the souls I was reading, pouring through your own secrets to discover the best of what makes you work, the similarities of anxiety, but also the understanding of the growth and garnishment it brings to life, the appreciation for the cycles. The beauty drew me in. Half way through I was almost saturated, but something clicked and kicked in-- after the act of drinking water and stepping outside for a deep breath and a pause, something bigger than I had known before when communicating in cyberspace -- I don’t know what filled me – a oneness, a absolute connection to not necessarily personalities but your souls and then it became fluid; It felt like a creation of art in and of itself. The reading and breathing in of the collective essences.

There was also the general theme that I don’t want to reiterate the same answers to the questions that most of us feel the same on. Your thoughts/mine reminded me in part of Virginia Woolfs’ '"A Room of One's Own." Her reasons for her lectures at a couple of colleges made into the book she explained by saying, "I wanted to encourage the young women- they seem to get fearfully depressed."

This subject of voids is hard one to not get slightly disheartened at because we are, after all, talking about the dark side, though educational in it's own way; our human body, mind, emotions, can betray us in a most fearful fashion and is not exactly fun to explore or revisit, but explore we must. It was very liberating to know my thoughts were mirrored, but at the same time found expression in new words that I could bring to my life, that would support me and silence, or least bring down to a low murmur, the purple people eater on occasion!

I liked one comment that was made that the fear wasn’t the dark place, but that one doesn’t know when it ends, or if it will. I have to remember when I’m there that it is not unending and reluctantly acquiesce. A bowing and surrender. The sweet release that brings peace and new beginnings.

There is also a comment made by Woolf, “what remains over when the skin of the day has been cast into the hedge…what is left of past time and of our loves and hates.” This is my surrender, my peace, my love, and my empty vessel ready to be filled again. In the book Michelle Casou says, “To be creative means becoming more familiar with being a little lost. If we are always full of what we want to do, there is no room for the new.” A perfect pearl there.

I am finally familiar with being lost – it doesn’t scare me, my own voice doesn’t scare me and other’s voices don’t either. Marilu Henner once said something along the lines of, “it’s how you deal with Plan B.” It’s the resiliency factor for me. It’s not saying survivor, but thrive.

Eternally in love with humanity
Forever grateful for this day and this community
And honored by being in your presence
Namaste