WTJ Wk 2 -- Observing

These two pictures added to blog later in the day -- I forgot about my blue circles and new art supplies being so surprised at my book actually breaking!  These are the little new dew drop chalk inks. I love the colors.  Sorry I was cranky this morning. I think my journal was more sorry.

I woke up very CRABBY this morning! When I opened my journal it fell on this page so I very aggressively swung the book in my right hand against the short end of open door. This felt so good I did it four more times and to my utter surprise the book broke in half! Can you believe it?? I stood there looking down for 1/2 a sec striking silent my brain think, blinking. I REALLY destroyed the book. OMG this was too ironic! Now what?  Take a picture. It is still there, across from me as I type  -- my superstitious nature is wondering if it is a sign.

This week I found myself observing my reactions to the prompts in WTJ and after declaring my independence last week was surprised to find resistance. I didn't want to sew and said so, but have decided I'll find some thread and give it a go. I saw a page instructing to throw it out and one that said give away your favorite page! What? My adult did not want to trash a page, it was akin to burning books, and my little girl definitely did not want to share her favorite page. She didn't know what it was yet and it may be really good!

 This made me wonder why. I've got some guess's worth exploring. 

Another observation was I thought the outside of the book very ugly and did not want to carry it with me, let alone sleep with it. Now what the hell does that say about me? I'm a closet snob? mmm
My husband was horrified while I gleefully tore up the front page. It was a good thing this pyro decided to burn over sink... things almost got carried away!! had to douse it under the water and now the book has this wonderful over used, fell in the bathtub look! (well, it did) Writing on the closed pages reminded me of HS, bored, writing aimlessly. This prompted a exercise where I started drawing a little guy jumping in the lower right corners of several pages -- this was SO Fun!! -- creating my own small movie. 

Yes, I wrote bad words on my four letter word page -- and then crossed them out -- this is PG after all. :)

The pictures were taken over a piece of practice art. Filling in the T's with red marker and noticing they looked like crosses so I went over them making them more obvious made me feel positively devilish!

I found many of my reactions spilling into real life. I tore up my house to rearrange it. I didn't bust ass to cook when my son came home with a guest and when my out of state relatives came to visit and consequently more of hubby's family came. It was weird. No one is hardly ever at our house and the minute I turn the kitchen into a pseudo studio with no place to sit and full of art that is absolutely neophyte, people show up. Very odd signs this week. 

I enjoyed the hidden messages I found out about myself this week. This isn't just about breaking rules, or making pretty art, or getting creative -  It is also about WRECKING and exploring my reactions to that wrecking. Very, very unexpected. Had me smiling sideways.

Hope your weekend is full of surprises!

PS -- posted a few hours later: You must check out this video song-- Dar Williams - As Cool as I Am -- about us Women --here Moomin Light !